It’s been 5 months.
I must say I have never been more focused and determined. It started with research, reading online, self help books, YouTube videos, yoga, meditation, therapy the list goes on! Being unknowingly codependent my entire life and finally opening my eyes has left me fighting for things I didn’t even know I could have had, for things I never knew should have been there, simple things like mutual respect and love. Having been surrounded by toxic people most of my life, I had never known when to stop giving, when to stop fixing, when to move on.
5 months on I can see clearly for the first time. Being able to analyse people for the first time. Not just their words but their actions. Boundaries are being set. Toxic people cut out of my life.
It does appear like this is going to be a life long game of me constantly having to centre myself, constantly checking in with myself. Constantly having to stop to analyse and understand my emotions. Being honest to myself and to others about the things that matter.
From being jobless, helpless and broken, managing a part time job, single after nearly 8 years, I have come too far and I never want to go back.